I never ever expected to........

But after a total of 4 years and 5 months I can now confirm that I have finally reached my goal. I have actually turned a zero Bankroll into $10 thousand Dollars. The funny thing is I do not know what to say now, its a weird feeling that after all this time and effort, and yes Pain with loss along the way that I have finally done it. Inside I am over joyed. Not in the fact its the end of the road, or that it's been a long old drag but the good feeling that me, just like any other poker player no special skills to boast about, but me I have actually copied what at the time 4 years ago was a great poker player who had a great poker brain and great bankroll management and that Jesus Ferguson did something at the time I thought was totally impossible for the likes of me to even get close to, but ok he might be accountable for is actions with Full Tilt Poker, but he taught me something that I must admit I could never do and that was how to look after your Bankroll, and with some simple rules stopped me from going broke and joining the thousands of poker players that go broke sometime in there poker lives. I did not just learn from it, but it was in printed into my brain and I have tried with the use of the blog as well tried to install into other poker players old and new. If I managed to alter just 1 person's idea of what Bankroll management is all about and they learned how to manage there Bankroll and not go broke then at least I have accomplished something and this 4 years was well worth it. So what's happened since the last update at the start of the month. To be honest not a lot really. I have spent some time visiting family and the other part struggling to find games to play. In fact I had just spoke to my rake back friend and I had explained the traffic on OnGame was seriously low and I was thinking of moving the challenge over to an Ipoker site and it was done and dusted. I was just waiting for the start of next month and was off... But I still had / have some tournament tickets left, and of course I do like the fast poker games. It was that fast poker game that I finished this challenge. I actually managed to turn just $1 to $3k in just 3 steps. It only took 6 days to turn that into $3k as well, it would of been quicker but the final step is ran just once a week. I managed to turn a step 1 ticket worth $1.05 and won that and received a step 2 ticket worth $14.70. In just 20 minutes I had won that with just 9 runners going for a step 3 ticket worth $210. The final step is only ran once a week so I had to wait 6 days, but I registered and just waited. Just over 2 hours ago 27 players played for x2 $3k packages to Malta. Under the rules of the challenge I could not just register for the final step, so I had to go through the steps route but of course by now you would of realised I actually won the tournament worth $3k. That $3k package combined with my current Bankroll which also includes $500 from that $3k for expenses stands at $7439.83. But I also have tournament tickets worth $618 in my account from Sat's I have won to make a grand total $10557.83. So now what happens, well I will post the final pictures up below and I will carry on I think using the same Bankroll rules. But I also have started my 2nd Jesus challenge on another site just 3 weeks ago. It was an offer to good to miss really, and the fact I have been doing family things for a week out of that 3 weeks, so in theory it only been like 2 weeks of playing, but I have already hit over £50. It was £60 yesterday but losing 3 buy in's in 30 minutes was enough for me today. Of course not full buy in's because that breaks the rules, so it was the lowest amount to buy in @ €3. I think I will start another Blog for the new challenge so keep your eyes peeled. I do not know what to call it yet, but don't be surprised to see 2nd Jesus challenge!! A big thank you for following me over the 4 years and 5 months. It has not been easy for me with loads of personal health issues to fight, but I kept to it, kept posting when I could and never lost sight of this Bankroll Challenge. Once again Thank you and see you on the 2nd challenge Blog.......

I can smell the finish :-0

Well may be not tonight, but its getting close, close as in actually finishing this Jesus challenge. I have been so close this last month, but just could not get that little luck in poker we all need to close it out. I can not actually remember the last update and were I got to in regards all those tournament tickets I had acquired. So I best recap, if memory served me right I had just over $2k in tickets with 2 for the high roller which is played every Tuesday. Actually it looks like I will not be playing anymore either after those two tickets because for some unknown reason they have pulled the free rolls which give them. Anyway, I did play both of them since the last update and it made nice change to play some good poker for once. You can really tell the difference in the level of play with most players buying in direct. What I did not account for was the length of time it took just to reach the cash. The first game I played very well and got the credit for my moves, and so got credit back. So after 5 hours we are hand for hand with the top 12 or so getting paid. Yes I did tighten up because it was a major cash for me especially after winning my ticket via a free roll. But I did cash and I went out in 12th after watching 2 or 3 short stacks double and left me needing to make a move, and it was in the blinds when then SB open shoves and I knew I was or could be ahead of his shoving range with the tight so I make the call, and I show QJ v his 5 6 off. I flop the Queen and its happy days, that is until the turn when the he hits 2 pairs and no help on the river and its curtains, but overall I'm thrilled to finish in the cash, and goes to show I an still play with the best of them on Betsson. I ended cashing for $1019.42. I waited 2 weeks until I played the 2nd ticket. I was not expecting another cash if I'm honest, but I actually went better than the last time. I ended up making the final table. I also never looked at the cash ladders because I was going for the win this time, and I wasted no time in shoving my 9bb into a button raise in the 1st hand of the Final table. I had K10 and again I flopped top pair after making the call. I have no problems with is call because he had A8, but per norm I was rivered by the Ace. No complaints overall, and I think 9th is very respectful. That was worth $1467.96, But I was not the first out on the Final Table, for some bizarre reason a player who I had down as a strong player ended up calling a all in with 7 4 off. He didn't improve v the guys Aces and I jumped $240 in the money tree, but looking back maybe I should of waited. But meh, such as life and those two tournaments boosted the bankroll over the $7k mark.

Moving on from that, I have played the All in Jobbies trying to capture another package and finally put this to bed, but having played about 6 finals since the last update, I still have not won the package. I might add though I have not bought into the final Sat which does cost $210 a throw, I as always play within the bankroll which means I have been playing a lot of the $14-70 Sat's. But I don't play all of them, I look each night, and if I see one with less than 10 runners I normally jump. That way you only have to win 1 hand instead of 2 with more than 10 players entered. I even played it just 2 days ago after winning my final ticket at the first attempt last week. Other than that I have been pretty quiet on the tables, and to be honest a bit of boredom sets in, but its mainly to do with nothing to play that's worth playing. The traffic seems to be really low recently. I have played the $5 rebuy @ 7pm a few times and normally go pretty deep in that, but nothing to write up about, no final tables recently, but again no real volume. Even the sit n go Hyper turbo's have gone quiet, which recently was my main rake back earner. But in the end I still think that I can close this out with just 1 decent run in a higher tournament, and I still have x6 $54 tickets along with a new Saturday ticket worth $100 and a $200 ticket for the Sunday Major. But I have also lost a bit of cash since the last update, which broke down is nothing since the update in May, and just today I have dipped below the $7k cash in my account, but with the tournament tickets I hold in theory I am still over the $7k. I just need to re think what I want to do. Just checking my Poker tracker and it seems I have only played 19 hands on the cash tables since the last update, but surprising I have played 291 Sit N go's since the last update, but bearing in mind that counts everything, the $1-05 all in's to the $100 hyper turbo HU, so a vast difference between stakes, but I was looking for action, and also if I was having a bad session I would normally carry on, and we are talking hyper turbo's so I can go through quite a few in a short space of time. I played 227 stt's in June, 55 in July and just 9 at the moment in August. I know its still not picking up every tournament, because both the high rollers I played have me down with no cashes, but if I need to double check anything I can purchase Shark Scope and look everything up there. I mean why would I have to lie about anything to do with this challenge, I would know deep down that once it is completed I know that I followed the rules till the end, and be proud of that fact as well, but 110 entries in this blog should back up everything I write about as well. I don't know, but some day someone might just want to have a closer look, and again I should update this more often, and now I updating it, I will continue to do so at the end of every month. Just to mention though, I have already set the 2nd Jesus challenge up and I'm currently playing free rolls on Bet Victor to get myself under way, but I will not be taking that so serious at the moment until this is finished, but the nice €1.5k is a nice prize every month, and would go a very long way in my 2nd attempt, only this time I want to make sure I do it within 2 years not like 4 years and counting with this, but for the regular readers of this will know why its taken me so long. If I counted the days I have played I'm sure it would reach under 2 years currently, but overall it does not matter how long it takes, just as long as it done properly. So you have the figures, but the closing figure on my challenge currently stands at........... $6997.28 and that's on the 6th August 2013. More to come towards the need of the month, unless of course I fluke a session and win big.......

F is for frustration

What a month this April has been. I have played the most poker for a long time, with me beating the volume for last month and points collected by at least double, and I thought March was a good month. There have been high and lows, there has been tears of joy, and also tears of sadness with frustration as well. I have played the $1 STT and I have played the hyper $100 HU to. I have played free-rolls and I have played $210 tournaments. I have played HU cash and I have played the $100 NL cash tables. So you can see I have played a wide range, and thus I have collected loads of points, which means loads of rake-back next month. But I really want to make the next level on the VIP ladder and that means I have about 700 to go, but 2 days later sadly I did not make the points. To be honest I think I may of been worn out and could not find the motivation to carry me for the last couple of days, but hey not to worry, it just gives me something to aim for in May. Carrying on from last month, and I played loads of heads up on the $28 STT, but did not quite run as good as the previous month. Maybe peeps did a bit of homework on my plays via there trackers, but even the fish I played found triple barreling in there arsenal this month, which of course makes it harder to fathom out. Overall I was still a winning player at those levels, but nothing like the last month. I also found it a tad hard trying to find games later on in the night, so found myself playing 14's but also the 54's though not many, but also had a session in the 100's. Under the rules of the challenge, I could not use more than 2% of my bankroll, which for the 100's was $5000. I did come close to hitting that figure but overall I stayed 3 buy ins above it. But the reason for the higher buy in was to play a guy I use to crush on the 28's, he was after 1st place in the monthly point race for the $10k first place cash, hence why he was playing that high. But overall I ended the session 2 games up over roughly 17 games, but of course when your rake is $5.00 per game it worked out at just over the one buy in up, but great for rake-back I didn't feel to confident towards the end of the month playing the HU, so I fell back a bit. Like I said the players must of done there homework on me, but meh. I mention F is for frustration, and if I tell you that I was just 1 card away from completing my Jesus challenge, you sort of get an idea why I am a bit gutted.... One card ffs. It's fair knowledge I like to play the all in coin flip sats, and in order for me to play the $200+ buy in tournaments I have to win some of these, or play the normal speed sats which after you've played hyper, just don't cut it anymore. Anyways, after failing for something like 30 odd $14-70 all in sats just to get a $210 ticket to be able to play the final flip tournament was proving to be so frustrating and expensive as well of course, but like all good things, when you hit one, you hit another straight after, so I ended up with 2 final tickets, and the prize was a $3k package to Malta in September this year. Sunday arrived, and not like the week before when I missed it..... Waited until the last seconds to reg. I don't know if it makes any difference or not, but I have won twice by being the last to reg. Cards are dealt and I have AJ suited, pretty good starting hand, and I avoid the river outs and with just 30 entrants on 10 seater tables that means 3 players reach the final table with 2 packages worth 3k. So I was confused when there were just 2 of us there and the cards where dealt again, with my J4 off v 10 3 off. Now with me saying I was 1 card away from finishing this, you can guess I was ahead until the river came, and of course the 10 hit and I was out, but then the other player turned up and he did not even have to play the last hand because I was out now. I could not understand it, I should not of played the hand until 3 of us where sat down, and I feel I was cheated somehat. Everything was equal, the runners on the same tables, the amount of time to deal the cards. Even if it was a chopped pot, they would still be moved to the next table, but with just there chopped pots, but that didn't even happen, with the guy sitting down with the full 10 chips. So one card from winning fair and square..... I have wrote to support who then forwarded the complaint from me to OnGame and I still wait there response. I very much doubt there going to give me the prize, because I was still only 66% to win even with 3 of us playing the final hand. But I wait and see, and knowing my luck nothing will come off it. I do have another chance with another ticket this Sunday but of course it's all luck with these, but this last thing I keep doing is proving a good thing, I have now bubbled twice and won twice, and I bet I have only played 7 of these final flip tournaments. I did however decide to upgrade my tracker to the latest poker tracker 4, but it seems like that was a mistake as well. It should of been a simple transfer over from poker tracker 3, but for some reason, most of my hands and results are nowhere to be seen. I have tried everything, and support want to do a remote session, so they can see what's going on. I will but I have a lot going on at the moment, so there going to have to wait. But I have noticed, it doesn't even collect all the data from the tournaments I have just played. The above coin flip for the package shows just one hand and thats the first hand, nothing about the second hand at all. I guess because its new there are going to be bugs that need fixing, but its defo wrecking my database for sure. The one good thing about all this play in April is the free-rolls that you are eligible for. If you hit 200 points from Sunday to Sunday you get into a $1k free-roll with about 120 runners in, and if you manage 500 points in a week, you get into the VIP free-roll which is top 3 win a $525 tournament ticket. I can not recall if I wrote in the last blog, but I managed to both in one week, and that's not to play both by the way, but managed to finish 3rd in the cash free-roll for $130 and then finished in the top 3 for the $525 ticket. Not bad for nothing. The VIP normally gets on average 30 runners or so, but of course it takes some doing to get to the 500 points in a week, so there not numpties, so it felt extra good that I could play and beat these players. But, only last week I managed to win my 2nd VIP $525 ticket, and so I now have 2. There is only one tournament a week that has that price ticket, and that is the Tuesday high roller. Unless there is some series going on and then they add extra $525 tournaments, but they have none running at the moment. Also they don't have a long shelf live, with just 4 weeks from the time you win to actually playing. With the lesser value tickets, you normally get 90 days from the time you win the ticket. I also managed to win a $165 Grand Prix ticket. I was watching the lobby and there was a freeze out $22 hyper sat into the said tournament, and with just 1 minute left to reg, there was just 1 player sat in. I waited and waited, and you normally get 2 or 3 jumping in the last seconds, but nothing. Just as long as more than 1 enter, the sat will still play, so of course with the last second on me and still just 1 player I registered and was chuffed when it was just me and him. Within the first 2 hands I knew he wasn't all that just by him limping HU. And within 2 minutes it was all over and thank you very much. To top it off, I played a hyper $5 rebuy Sat to win a $320 live event tournament ticket. I like OnGame because they do not offer late reg, so once it starts you know exactly how many you need to beat, and on this time it was about 15 or so. I re bought twice and took the add on and with just the 1 winner being paid it was all out attack when it was needed. All my hands held up, and went to HU even in chips. He folded to many of my button raises, so when I took a gamble and lost it, all it did was put us even again. Only the second time I actually hit my ace on the turn to cripple his hand of 66 I think it was and that was that, happy days. I have in tournament tickets alone $1750 worth, and with $5550 in cash it's way over the 7.3k, but could be over that if I knew the exact figures. So it's just 2.7k left to go, which is why F is for frustration....... This first week of May has been slow for me. I have hardly played and its now the 5th. I have not been to well, and have really struggled to sleep recently since the change of one of my meds. On top of that I have been getting prepared for my back op which is in a weeks time, and no doubt that will cause me more set back in volume, but to be honest, with the volume I played in April I guess it's not that bad an idea. Below is a screenshot of my account page, and you can see the tickets I have, combined with the cash and you can see I just need to convert those tickets into some sort of cash via the tournaments, and fingers crossed, my Jesus $10k challenge will be done and dusted. Please please please let it happen !!!

April here we come

Trying to find time to play the challenge is my main concern recently, but thats always the problem. Its normally the health that stops me. But since mum died I have had a lot of stuff going on regards family and making sure everyone is ok. I'm now the power of Attorney over Gran and her money, which I didn't realise is actually a pain in the arse to maintain, with having to write everything down that has got to do with her cash. On top of that I have to look after my special needs brother, who is getting better at doing things for himself, but then there's a basic laspe like buying ice lollies from the shop and leaving them on the table instead of putting them into the freezer, and thus having no lollies. School boy errors, but he should know this sort of thing, so I have to make sure I have my wits about and do everything else that needs to be done regards running a house on top of all that, which involves travelling quite regular up north. At the moment its about every 10 days or so and staying up to a week at a time. I have managed to have BroadBand installed and on the last trip set up another desktop with my Laptop there as well. But had to wait 6 weeks after the hub arrived before it was all working correctly, but its all done now. Sadly I only have the 1 screen at the moment, and not really had a chance to play poker up there yet to any degree. But next trip I should be good to go. I have however managed to play probably the most poker on the challenge to date during last month. I know I said I havent played much, but when your playing hyper Heads up Sit n go's its surprising how much rake and points you rack up. On top of that I found I was crushing the game at the $28 level, and during March I had played a total of 87 games HU Hypers with a min of $28 buy in. I won 55 and lost 32 so the maths work out a 19.91% ROI with a net win of $493.10. There are some $56 games in there as well, and just checking I played 3 and won 3. I know if I carry on like this I will run out of people to play. I am already finding it harder to find players. I'm hoping its just cos of the Easter holidays. But I have also been trying in vain to win myself a package to Marbella to play the GSOP and thats cost me big time, and still no seat, not even to the online final on a Sunday. I must of played roughly 30 $14.70 sats during March and lost everyone. That sort of streak defo eats into any profit I might of made. I have also been testing thr water in the 6 max cash games up to $1 tables, and if I play with no fear I can way handle myself there to. But its the 5/6 man hyper sit n go's I like as well. I read a peice in the pokerplayer Magazine about some guy on stars whos going for x8 Super Nova Elite in a year, and he plays just hyper 6 man STT's from $100 min upto $1000. I watched him for a while and if hes happy making just 2% pre rakeback then there is hope for me yet. I play a very sim way and range, and its not about the cards, more like position and pressure. You have to remember, at worst v any 2 cards your still a 35% chance of winning the hand, and thats if of course you get a call. Its easy shoving your stack in with 2 3 off, but its a complete different thing calling with 2 3 off and thats how he makes it work for him. But this guy is playing like 15 at a time, where on OnGame your lucky to get 1 game per 10 minutes. But like mentioned, I played or that should read I raked the most I have in any month of this challenge in March, and to come out of it up is a bonus. I actually managed to win a couple of Sats as well and so now have tournament tickets for $108 and $200. I will be looking to play those in the forth coming month and instead of sitting on them I can close this out with a final table in either, now that would be good..... I have just remembered though, I have played a little on Microgamming via Betsson and thats a € site. I recall dropping €100 on the first hand with the dreaded KK v AA and I ended up almost €160 in the hole before I called it quits, so that wasnt fun at all. Overall I don't know exactly how much the roll is, but I know its dropped below the $4000 mark which I think I mentioned last update. But with everything combined I'm probably looking at $3500 ish could be a little more but not much more I dont think. Anyways thats the update for this month, and hopefully I'll update again next month. Thanks for reading per norm. Plaza

Poker is so frustrating

I try so hard to give this my all and actually want to succeed and finally finish this challenge, but whenever I try there is something, or someone who's going to screw it up for me.... To be honest I haven't been running that well since the last update, and I have now used up all my tickets which I carried over from last year. The biggest killer was the $320 ticket I had and failed to convert into anything, so that was a sizeable chunk gone in an instant. But I did email support and try and get the expiry date moved. I can't recall if I mentioned this in the last update, but it wasn't granted, and I had a rant so it was no surprise I crashed and failed with that ticket. But I was also starting to run bad in the hyper turbo sit n go's I enjoyed playing. I know there huge variance types of games but I felt I wasn't getting the run of the green so to speak and rather chase my losses I decided to take a break from those. The traffic for the other games is so pants on OnGame it's not worth it, so I have played little since the the tournament above. But this weekend just gone I had to play the last of my tickets, and while the GSOP Series is running it was a good chance if I ran well I could close this challenge out. So I played the GrandPrix on Saturday with 40k GTD with my ticket, and after, granted wanting to make the money after playing for 5 hrs and a desperate confidence boost I folded my way to the cash. But only because everyone else was doing the same thing, and with top 46 players getting paid and me sitting with 12 bb and still in the top 30 overall sorted made me play that way. So combined with all that I was happy to fold to the cash. But once I cashed I didn't go stupid and want to double up straight away and tried to pick my spots, but of course all the other short stacks were just lumping it in. I wasn't bothered about laddering and eventually blind on blind with me holding Ace six off in the BB was an instant jam/call and I guess him holding Jack Ten was most likely going to call my shove after his raise anyways. That's what happened and he turned the Ten and that was me out in 34th for $278 I think it was. Gutted my hand didn't hold up, but overall pleased I manage to cash and of course I still had another ticket for the following day into the 200k. So after failing to land a final GSOP Marbella all in ticket I decided I was going to play the 200k and also the mini version but was 90% cheaper with the same structure. I played good steady poker and I defo think my post flop poker has improved loads over the recent 12 months or so after reading and watching videos, but it only takes a brief bit of madness and its all over...... Playing for 4 1/2 hrs and doing pretty good in both tournaments and still about 150 from both cashes I then play my Ace King in the smaller game. Granted it was 2nd raise in 2 hands and wasn't surprised to get 3 bet in late position, I make my 4 bet and leave half my stack behind which is enough to tell him it's going in if he wants to play ball. He does jam and I make the call, but WTF he turns over 9 6 off. Yes of course he hits the turn and I'm out . I resist the urge to call him a fucking moron, but inside I'm so pissed off and I instantly raise on the 200k table with Jack Ten suited, I get 3 bet by the guy next me and I'm still fuming so 4 bet and he shoves and I call. He turns over queens and that's me out. Looking back of course I'm gutted. I could of made such a deep run in the 200k and was sitting in about 150th about 100 from the money with top 220 being paid. But I also wanted to make an effort this time round to actually not bother about just cashing and go for it if I had the cards or the position to add chips to my stack. In hindsight it was a simple fold preflop, but I can't undo something that's already been done. I guess I'm just human after all. I have just remembered another key hand as well which stands out and when your running bad, your running bad. I have QQ and I get 2 callers and the flop comes Q 6 7 rainbow and I make the cont bet and get shoved on, happy days. I obv make the call and very happy to see him with 6 7 suited. I have him totally crushed, but the turn brings another heart to give him a flush draw, and yup the river brings another heart to take the pot. I get back down to 8bb and totally gutted. But I do make the comeback and manage to treble up 20 mins or so later to put me back in the game. But it's so annoying for you to watch the sickout kid then go on a huge tear and collect chips for almost every player. Talk about thin edges and all that.... But overall I'm happy today, mainly down to reading an article about Jake Cody who was asked why he never seems to go on tilt, and just says, if I played well that's all I can do. He has got a point, but its hard sometimes to think about what might of been, and the old saying is just a classic.... Lives are changed forever on the turn of a card, how so true...... Overall the challenge bankroll is still well below the 5k I had at the start of the year, and of course playing these three big ticket tournaments with little reward was always going to hit hard, but its still pretty good at about $4300. I say about because its split between OnGame and MIcrogamming but with the same poker site and the latter being in €. I don't know which direction to take next. I have a lot of promotions going on at the minute with other sites so time and traffic issues are the key at the moment, but I will update when I can, until next time thanks for reading...

Happy New Year

Wow, is it really that long since the last post. Well I am sorry for that, but it is with deep regret that the end of last year I just wish never happened. I'll explain in minute, but first the Jesus Challange is still on. I don't know if I mentioned it in the last entry but I have had to move it yet again due to lack of traffic. I moved over to Betsson in September I think it was, and was doing ok, and by the end of the new I had hit the $5k mark. But within that 5k there were tickets for tournaments which I had won and 1 was for a $320 tourney with a couple for $200 and $160 which all added up and took me over the $5k. I played a lot of Sit n go's cos the cash was a little slow in filling up, although the 6 man tables where pretty full all the time, but I'm not much of a short game player, so full ring it was, so it was rare I played cash. So like I said I was doing ok and managed to reach 5k with the tickets included in that figure. But then Jan started and I was forced to play some of the tickets because they would not move the expiry dates for me, because I was not feeling up to it, well to be honest when your mum dies, yes sad to say she passed away in Nov last year, and I have lost the plot with poker. Its simply not the first thing I think about these days, and can not motivate myself to play. I still have a load of stuff to sort out cos of mum's death, which means I have to travel up north to my home town quite often and spend time up there and try and sort my brother out who has special needs who lived with mum. On top of that I still have the effects of the medication and the problem the back causes me. On top of all that, yes there is more. But when I returned back from Vegas in Oct I caught a virus from Jo. Nothing really, her mate had it for 3 days and felt ok after that. Well 9 weeks later, yes 9 weeks later I just managed to get over it. So that was on top of Mum dying, op top of my back killing, on top of my medication and the nice side effects, and also my gran who was my mum's mum still in the care home and now me being her next of Kin. But it gets better still. After the goverment changed the welfare law in April 2012, my ESA ( Employment Support Allowance ) was stopped because I was put into the work releated group, and I didnt know at the time, but I thought it meant because I had suffered at work and was on the sick. But no, it was because they thought I was able to work and so put me in that group. Of course I didnt know this till they stopped my money and I asked why. So for 10 months now I have been asking to be moved into the support group, which lets you carry on receiving your ESA. But I have never had anything back from them in 10 months. At first it was because I had to wait until it was my turn, and that turned out to be December, yes December..... I have 3 times sent in supporting documents from the hosptial, GP and counsellor along with page after page of noted from me, but yet still nothing from them. So I think Its off to the CAB to get help. I even wrote to Cameroon, and was sent a reply by his aid with a sheet of paper telling me to do the stuff I had already done. But due to all thats gone on I never sent another letter, which I should do when I have the capicity to do it. I'm so depressed its unreal, but under the circumstances, its amazing I'm still alive. So sorry for the lack of updates, but I'm sure you understand why now, and although I play a little poker, its nothing I would like to play and after about 30 minutes I come off, sometimes during tournaments and just sit out and close down. I have just sent a link to my phone which lets me update the blog from there now, so the updates should be more frequent although the poker might not be much. Shit happens I know, but come on I must of been a bad one in my previous life is all I can say........ Speak soon peeps and thanks for reading. Plaza