Late pm 1st March

1st March late pm,

Things aren't that good for me at the moment. I went back to the hospital Yesterday and having time to digest what they told me It sent me deep into my depressive state. The reason being I was told I have to attend a programme at the hospital for 2 weeks in July, the course is quite intense and then after you can then have the Operation which is the Spinal Cord Stimulation. But........ I was there yesterday and all I had to do was some simple excercises. Stretch there crouch here sort of thing but hell did I suffer afterwards with real bad pain and I have to go through 2 weeks of intense stuff. There is no way I can cope with it, there on about reducing the pain control as well. Hell its just been increased to combat the ever raising pain. I sleep between 12 to 16 hrs a day cos of the strength of the pain control and during this 2 week course which is staying at the hospital by the way I have to be up and ready and had Breakfast by 8-30 and it finishes everynight at 5pm. So thats why I am so depressed at the moment knowing there is nothing else after. You HAVE to attend and DO the 2 week course in order to have the Op that would reduce my pain level, so they say. Hell it might not even work for me this Op. Its for really back Sciatica down the legs and I dont have that sort of pain. So its Killing me at the moment.

Well after all that I was amazed to play any poker at all, but with it being a new month and not hitting my €100 rake last month I do get anything back. Which at 55% is a hefty some. But meh can't do anything about it now. So like I said I started playing a bit this afternoon and suck out city was the correct word, only not for me but them Villains. But it wasnt long before I had to sit out and that was that for that session. I think just 40 minutes I lasted. But after evening tea I started up 8 tables for a while knocking it down to 6 when I had other things to play but while I was in those other tourney's I kept the 6 tables open. It got worse before it got better and I was down about 3 buy in's at one stage when my AA were cracked within 30 secs of each other. I did claw a huge chunk back when I flopped a flush King high with 2 all in's after the flop, Lucky for me the board didnt pair and the turn was the Ace of my flush. I also just sat there when I was holding KK and the board come Kxx and the guy to my right over-shoved all in with AK. Those 2 hands pulled it back for me and when I finished I thought I was defo still down but suprised to see I was up. Yeah not much but green is defo better than red.

Played a total of 1382 hands today with the tracker telling me just short of 3.5 hrs playing. I did notice my stats when I was out of my other tourney's and they were so tight it was unreal. On 1 table I was playing 7 Vpips with 0 PFR. Wow that's insane so I did pick up from there raising loads of pots and wouldnt be suprised if thats the reason the Villains did what they did.

Overall still deeply down and hopefully trying to update the blog on a more regular basis might be the therapy I need.