March 6Th Late pm,
Sunday arrived and was greeted to some sad news about a family death. Although not really a close family it still hurts to know you have known them all your life and it really put a dampener on the day.
My Gran was the worst apparently and I thought I would have to make the trip up north to be with her, but just come round a bit towards the end of Sunday night. My Mother is going to go to the funeral to represent the family so at least I don't have to travel which is good news for me because I am still suffering from what the hospital told me last week and I would of struggle to keep my emotions in check unlike some forum I am apart of.
But we have to go on and once it was decided I didn't have to travel I wanted to play some poker but even once I hit the tables my heart was not really into it and lost about 4 buy In's in a short space of time so took a break and returned later. The players who had notes on me regarding me as tight as they come must of been scratching there heads when I did play on Sunday night. I was bluffing for the hell of it and raising it up with 3 bets and 4 bets and before I knew it I had clawed 3 buy In's back and ended up just €9.01 down over 512 hands. I had to laugh at my Stats on the tables and almost perfect on all of the 6 tables I was on with 33/23 Vpips. Which if you remembered from last week I was playing something like 7/1 Vpips. But it seem to work for me. But to be honest I didn't care, with what had happened earlier with the death.
Anyways today was a little better although I felt like shite again and really struggled to keep my eyes open so again it was a short burst before closing it down and carried on from last night with the aggression. Not so much spewed this time and yet again made a decent profit over about 200 hands or so, then had a phone call to knock me down even further. Not only am I classed with having Chronic Depression and severe pain control problems I was told I was going to have my benefit stopped on the 30th April. Reason ? Because I have been on ESA for 365 days and under the new wealth fare bill anyone who has been on ESA for 52 weeks will have there money stopped !!! WTF, so on top of everything else that's going or gone tits up in my recent life they come along and make the problem worse. If your off work for 52 weeks or more I am sure that means that is because your not fit enough to work..... Yes I know there are others abusing the system but come on this is a joke and not just to me. I am sure there are loads others in the same boat as me. Anyways I'm rambling and its doing me no good. I am going to make a phone call tomorrow after seeing my Shrink for my Chronic depression that the Government just don't believe or care about and see where I go from there.....
So like I was saying played a tad like 200 hands and felt a bit better after eating some tea and played a total of 2 hrs in total from this afternoon and tonight's sessions. I was quite shocked to see I made a profit being I lost a full buy in on the very first hand of the night, but I did and any figure in green is defo a result, and although I still see the big loss on the 2ND March I now have 3 winning days over the 2 losing days.
I am still almost 6 buy ins down on the month but with plenty of time I think* in March still to go I am hopeful of turning it around.
Today's figures are played 679 hands over 2 hrs with a gain of €4.29.
I also received my own rake back site link to keep tabs on my rake during the month, which is very handy to have because I don't have to do all the working out now or keep asking if I have made the €100 rake for the month.....
I don't know what tomorrow brings, but I want to nail at least 1k hands tomorrow, so till the next updates thanks for reading and y'all comeback now you hear !!
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